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I Am Afraid Of My Own Voice

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HugQueen

Published: Apr 25, 2009

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You are an entire universe full of stars;
tiny droplets of light,
that integrate to become a part of me.

You inflate my heart,
it was made of paper but now
reminds me of odd-shaped balloons,
to sizes that can not be measured.

I've tried to count the reasons.
that I l-o-v-e you.
But come up short to a million every time.

I am always reminded of your love,
(As if I'd let myself forget.)
Your smile serves as my Polaris:

Ribbons are fastened about my tongue;
I am more than flabbergasted
because there's a part of you in every word.

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NotreForteresseBrule

For the amazing and wonderful =kiwi-damnation.

She had told me she wanted "a poem of what you think of me" I wish I could do you more justice hun. Words fail me sometimes. ♥

Oh and if this doesn't make sense it's because it's 4:30AM.